Blog 7: Existing

Sometimes, you’ll have a couple of good days. and then it hits you. Everything. It hurts to talk, to love, to be. Existing is so difficult at times but no one wants to hear that. No one wants to know about the days you spend crying or curled up in a corner somewhere or wishing you could be anywhere but here. We all have our ways of coping with it. We all have our very own acts of survival. Our ways of staying alive when we’re in too much pain to feel anything at all. I get it. This isn’t life anymore. This is just about getting through the day. I hope that one day it’ll be something more than that. It’s okay if you don’t know what to feel, if you don’t know what you want and if you can’t figure things out as you go. It’s okay to not want something you worked so hard on getting- after realizing it wasn’t what you thought it was. It’s okay to change your mind, to make mistakes, to walk away from someone you once loved - from something that once meant the world to you. It’s okay, because this is your life, your cause, your body, your beliefs, your mind, your heart, and your feelings. And you don’t need validation from anyone, other than you. You don’t have to explain. It’s not your job to make people understand. You know your heart. Focus on you, don’t focus on anyone else’s opinions on you or your life. Exist for you.